Sunday, 29 August 2010

Tryin' to think of...

... something useful to write but I just can't think of anything right now. I've a lot to do, tryin' to find an apartment, going to work and studying witchcraft.

I met the energy healer the other day. It was my first touch in Reiki. I did sleep after couple of nights (during the first two nights after Reiki, the neighboors were being noisy :/). The healer said that my sleeping problems were 'caused by the fact that I was opening up to the energies - same thing had happened to her seven years ago. At the same night I also went to my first Reiki meeting at Punavuori and got to try Reiki healing myself. I had no idea what to do so I did whatever came into my mind (I guess that's the best way to do it). In their opinion it was very unusual but they liked it. :)

So, that's about it this time.

Monday, 23 August 2010

What the heck's wrong with me?

I don't get this anymore. What the hell's wrong with me? I've had serious sleeping problems for like - three month's now. I somehow keep waking up all the time (that is the case, if I happen to fall asleep) and there's no reason why. I've been seeing a doctor and visited a psychiatrist but they don't know what's wrong (and I've been in accupuncture but..). They say that at this point, being slept so little (about 2-4 hours a night, sometimes not at all), I shouldn't be able to stay awake or WORK at all. But I somehow seem to be able to be completely normal, do my work and stuff. And the most insane thing here is that I don't feel sleepy. I want to sleep but I don't feel sleepy. I just have energy. This's scaring me. I've always been a good sleeper. But now the smallest noises are bothering me even though they used to calm me down in the past. Last night, the harmless ticking of a clock almost drove me crazy. It was somehow very distressing. I felt distressed most of the time last night, even though - again - I have no reason!

I thought, maybe it's the bed (I've tested if I could sleep better on better bed - but no), I'm hoping it's just the anxiety of trying to find a new apartment bugging me unconsiously.. But then again, I've been in these kind of situations before and slept well even though I've been about to be kicked out the next day. I'm a happy-go-lucky type of a person.

This sucks. Sometimes I even cry 'cause, hell, I don't know what's going on. What if I won't sleep anymore - ever? No medicine works. I'm lost, I need somebody to confort me and say it's gonna be okay. I feel like a child calling her mom. And sometimes in the middle of the night when I'm still awake I really need a mom - any mom. Somebody. This sounds so stupid...

Luckily I'm gonna go and see a energy healer (or something like that), 'cause really, I'm done with doctors. I hope she can help me. At least she says so.

Saturday, 14 August 2010

Turning Chinese

What's up with me nowadays? For the past two weeks or so I've become more and more drawn to all things chinese (or all things chinese have become more and more drawn to me). This theme just keeps repeating itself again and again and everytime it becomes stronger and stronger. It's everywhere I go. Something chinese comes my way. For example, today I went to a antiquarian bookshop and as I stepped in I noticed there was some kind of chinese theme going on. There were a lot of books about ancient china. I looked at the books while listening the vendor man talking to the phone. "Yeah, the chinese people went.. Yeah, I visited china.. Chinese language..China this, Chinese that.." Just china, china, china! Resounding in my ears.

I get this weird feeling sometimes, about some of the items or pictures, as if it reminds me of something I just can't quite remember. The feeling is wistfull but sometimes at the same time I feel this sadness, depression or even repulsion. It might have something to do with past lives, something that I have to go through now.

I also visited Aurinko Shop at Forum and there were a lot of chinese stuff there that I hadn't noticed before. I couldn't resist the temptation to by a little black dragon statue. It somehow felt so alive. I named it Mushu according to the dragon in the Walt Disney movie Mulan. Now I gotta reed more about ancient china as I came up with this idea to include chinese elements in my magick. :)

Ugh, and I've been such a big spender again (Mushu you better pay yourself back since you insisted me to buy you)..

Wednesday, 11 August 2010

Candle magick

This simple spell of mine is the first one I've created and performed.

First gather the energy in a way you feel is rigth for you. Then take a peace of paper (natural paper if possible, parchment etc.) and write down whatever it is you want (with ink, if possible). Imagine your will (the energy!) floating through your hand into the paper, into the words you write. Then spent a moment visualizing your goal - make sure you don't lift the pen up from the paper just yet. Now, when you're ready, fold the paper, light a candle (you may pick the color of the candle according to your goal - such as red or pink for love) and burn the paper in the candle flame. Once burned, gather the ashes and throw them into the wind for to be carried to manifestation. I burned the paper in my sink, so I gathered as much ash as I could and the rest of it I flushed away with water - a good way, if you wanna include all four elements in your magick.

Hope you guys find it usefull! :)

Monday, 9 August 2010

Music

Here's a wonderfull peace of music from Loreena McKennitt. In my opinion she's one of the best pagan music makers of all time. Also, check out a piece named Mystic's Dream (if you haven't already done so, it's quite popular) - my favorite. <3

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0B7sH5QLyXY

The Mystic's Dream: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CIghrxxhQYs

Enjoy and blessed be!

Thursday, 5 August 2010

Magical jewerly

I'm a huge fan of jewerly and at times I get these urges to buy a lot of them. Now I'm mainly talking about gemstones, not the plastic grap they sell in regular stores and malls. Gemstones (as well as minerals) have their very own vibrations and auras and can be used in magical workings plus they're extremely beautifull. When I called the quaters for the first time I used carnelion to represent south. I have a punch of amethysts, two moonstones one of which is a pendant, the carnelion I mentioned, a tiger eye and recently I bought a crystal pendant from an asian couple who tour the world. They're now settled here in Helsinki and can be found from Kamppi. There's this open area in front of the mall and on warm and sunny days they're there selling natural and hand made jewerly. Follow the trumming if you fancy to find them!

I took pictures of my newest "boughtings", here they are:


The pentagram is the one I bought when visiting my home town and the tortoise I bought today. It's aventurine, said to be helpfull in meditation and opening ones energies.



Here are the rest of my babies. :) The Ankh on the left, little crystal kitty I also bought with the tortoise and this extremely beautifull necklace made by the asian man at Kamppi. I bought it together with the crystal necklace you also see here. The first round pearl or stone he said is a grass pea, but I'm not sure if I heard it right 'cause I've never heard there's such a stone. I googled it, but didn't find a stone named "grass pea". And the other stone below the so called grass pea, he didn't know it's origins. He just picked it up from the sea. Nevertheless the handwork is beautifull. And then the bracelet with tinkerbells attached - also made by the asian couple. It's so beutifull and unique! Isn't it? I love it. <3 Please people, at least those who live in Helsinki or near, visit this amazing couple! I highly recommend it. :) 

Yesterday bought a book called  Magical Oils A-Z by Maria Solomon. the book contains at least 1000 different oils and instructs in using them. There're also some spells (mainly candle magick) and recipes. So let's see... Let's see..

Sunday, 1 August 2010

Happy Lughnasadh!


My Lughnasadh greetings to everyone! Hope you enjoy this fest. I bought some peanuts as I'm both very lazy and lousy cook. ;D But who knows, maybe I'll bake something after all.. Since I don't have too many pagan or wiccan or witch friends to share the bread with I was thinking of putting a nut into the bread (and eat it myself of course) and the day I'll find it, is considered very lucky. :)

Oh, and I had something else in mind.. I found this lovely Three Wishes Spell from the internet:

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3 WISHES SPELL




Place 3 candles on the highest place in your home, inside a plate, and surround the candles with sugar. Light the candles. Ask guardian angels, St. Raphael, St. Michael, and St. Gabriel to grant your wishes. Make one wish for business, one for love, and one for the impossible.



On the 3rd day after you make your wishes, publish this spell (by emailing to a friend, posting on an internet group site, or publishing your thanks in a classifed ad).



See what happens on the 4th day........



Thank you St. Raphael, St. Michael, and St. Gabriel!
 
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This's my third day as you had probably already guessed. So let's see what happens tomorrow.. ;)