Friday, 23 December 2011


Have a Magical Yule everybody!

I collected some branches that had fallen on the road and brought them inside to give a nice scent in the circle. I also came up with a wonderfull Yule scent using essential oils. To try it out you'll need:

4 drops of cinnamon
2 drops of clove
3 drops of lemon
3 drops of orange

I meditated in the circle thinking what Yule itself means for me. New beginnings. :) Fresh starts. The light slowly but surely increasing.. Spring coming soon..! <3

Sunday, 11 December 2011

A little introduction for Bay leafs (one of my favorite herbs! <3). They're easy to get and can be used multible ways. Most commonly used in mediterranean cuisine for to bring flavor for soups and the like, the plant also has it's religious roots far back to antiquity. It was possibly most commonly used by the Greeks and the Romans although the plant originated in Minor Asia from where it quickly spread to more suitable climates.

Bay leafs are sacret to Apollo, the sun, and the zodiac sign of Leo. It was a central component of many ancient mythologies and a symbol of honour. In ancient times it was used in Delphi (the famous town of the oracle) to roof the Temple. Bay leafs have long been accosiated with protection against evil. In religious ceremonies, Bay leaves were used to srinkle water around the area. Some say that inhaling the smoke one may increase his/her physic abilities. Bay leaf is also used in love spells according to it's mythology, Apollo falling in love with a nymph named Daphne. It is a common belief that a wish written on a Bay leaf will come true after the leaf is burned.

Bay leaf had an important role in the Middle Ages too.

In the Middle Ages, bay leaves were believed to induce abortions and to have many magical qualities. They were once used to keep moths away, owing to the leaf's lauric acid content that gives it insecticidal properties. Bay leaves have many properties that make them useful for treating high blood sugar, migraine headaches, bacterial and fungal infections, and gastric ulcers. Bay leaves and berries have been used for their astringent, carminative, diaphoretic, digestive, diuretic, emetic and stomachic properties. Bay oil, or oil of bays (oleum lauri) is used in liniments for bruises and sprains. Bay leaf has been used as an herbal remedy for headaches. It contains compounds, called parthenolides, which have proven useful in the treatment of migraines. Bay leaf has also been shown to help the body process insulin more efficiently, which leads to lower blood sugar levels. It has also been used to reduce the effects of stomach ulcers. Bay leaf contains eugenol, which has anti-inflammatory and antioxidant properties. Bay leaf is also an antifungal and antibacterial, and has also been used to treat rheumatism, amenorrhea, and colic.  - Wikipedia

This article of Bay leafs lead us to my next subject which is the last night's Esbat. I've had some trouble with love spells. They fail, mainly because I find it difficult to vizualise a person who doesn't already exist. And I don't want to interfere anybody's free will. And also, I believe in destiny to an extent that I believe that certain people are meant to be with certain people at certain moments. But last night I wanted to try something with Bay leaves so I draw two rings that cross each other, a symbol that somehow unconciously speaks to me. If I remember right, this symbol is one of the inventions of Scott Cunningham. I have no idea why to do it in a first place.. I don't really feel the need (at least conciously) for realtionship or marriage. But I felt like doing it. So I did. We'll see what happens. Happens or not.

P.S: Sorry for the lack of personal pics. I haven't had time to load the battery of my camera.

Friday, 25 November 2011

Incense In Ancient Egypt

I've been busy and I'm about to be a lot more busier since I'm gonna be involved in a theater project.. Anyways, meanwhile I'm sharing this incense recepie used in ancient Egypt. Named Kyphi (meaning "Welcome to the gods"), it was one of the very precious mixtures used at the time. It's use included aid for sleep and dreaming as well as all kinds os complaints.

Kyphi's main ingredients were Frankincense and Myrrh. Cinnamon, spikenard, sandalwood, coriander, raisins and wine are the rest and used to make the whole thing into pellets.

I gotta try this one as soon as I get all the ingredients. I'm also planning for doing a dream spell, meaning, that I'd cast a spell while asleep, being aware of the fact that I'm asleep. In other words, while lucid dreaming. You see, in a dream state your vizualisation is the most strongest and the ability to live the outcome of the spell as well. So it is a very powerfull technique. ;)

Sunday, 13 November 2011

The book everybody shoud read!

I just read the book "Noitien asianajaja (Häxornas förvarare)" by Jan Guillou. I gotta tell you that I absolutely love the book! If you can say you know anything about the burnin times and witch hunts.. think again and read this book. Because if you haven't read this book I dare to claim you know nothing. The book is about witch hunts in Sweden, but also in Finland, Norway, Iceland, Italy and Spain. It is a must-have in every witches bookshell.

The thing I love about this book is that it's very profound. It is also written in a way that it both makes you laugh and cry. It analyzes the worldview of the people in 15th century and eventually points out that nothing has changed. And against modern expectations, there were people in the 15th century who stood by the so called witches and thought that the witch hunts were absolutely nonsense. I the book, read it, read it, read it!!!

On other things. Once been studying Ceremonial Magick or Ritual Magick or "Art Magick", or whatever you want to call it, I'm even more convinced that Wicca is the thing for me. What a dazzling sensation it was, when I was spending my Esbat and performing the Charge! Though it is very usefull to read and study other forms of magick too. I learned a lot. :)

Monday, 31 October 2011

Happy Samhain!

Have a blessed Samhain you all!

I did a ritual cleasing myself from harming habits by standing between two candles and visualizing their energy to chase away negative energy/habit. I also made my own non-alcoholic mead by boiling a half of a cup honey in 5dl water with a half teaspoon of cinnamon. After removing the foam appearing on the surface, I added a pinch of salt and some lemon juice. This recepie is originally from Scott Cunningham (note: I replaced nutmeg with cinnamon).

Lately I've been into runes. My little dog had had a bit difficult time and it had been in a surgery. I've been sending healing energy to him visualizing the rune Uruz (healing, in some sorces say) above him and absording into him. Well, within a week my mom informed me that Puksu has completely recovered know. <3

Tuesday, 27 September 2011

This morning I nearly fainted while doing the Middle Pillar exercise, I felt hot and dizzy and it was hard for me to vibrate the words. Even though I was in a T-shirt and my room was cool. I felt a bit dizzy yesterday too but not so much that I had to lay down like this morning. This has not always occured (though the book says that it might happen since we are dealing with a powerfull energy). But sometimes it does.. and now I'm wondering if the moon phases have something to do with it. It's new moon now and I am a new moon child (meaning that at the very moment when I was born it was new moon). So could it also affect my receptivity?

Thursday, 22 September 2011

Blessed Mabon

Here's a beautifull song piece by Omnia. <3

I did a little ritual in the woods. For a second I thought I saw a dark smoky figure for going in the woods.. Nevertheless I could feel how happy the forest was for my visit. It made me happy too. ;)

Friday, 16 September 2011

Hi guys! I hope you had a nice Esbat! :) Speaking of which.. I myself tried something I hadn't done before, which was creating an energy entity. I used the method's of Janet and Steward Farrar described in their book "The Witches' Bible" because I found it easier at this stage. "Moderns Magick" also instructs in creating entities but I'm not quite that far yet (I'm in lesson six by the way). And since "Modern Magick" is about ceremonial magick, I should learn several rituals beforehand. This time I preferred the simple version.

I'm going to give you the method The Farrars and I used.

First you have to decide the purpose of this entity. After that, decide it's gender, looks, character etc. If you have artistic ability, it'd be a good idea to draw it on paper. Come up with a name for it, but don't use any Goddess or God names -  you don't want it to think it's superior to you or mistake itself as an autonomious entity what it is not. It's part of you and after it has fullfilled it's task it should return and merge into it's source (you) again.

This entity is created in a magick circle using vizualisation. See it as clearly as you can. After you are satisfied in your vizualisation, you symbolically give birth to it. Now, how this is done is up to you. Whitches' Bible describes a symbolical rite by a male witch and a female witch, but a solitarian must improvise. It is a good idea to ask the Gods to give life into it. Also the birth of the entity is best marked by a ring of a bell (or the like) - says the book. So after it's birth, you address it by it's name and tell it it's task. In the end, remember to tell your entity to return to you as soon as he/she has done what he/she was created for. Likewise, you can set up a timeline ("..return unto me who created you on the day of the next fullmoon etc..")

So what I created was Scheduler. It's job is the schedule my life so that dancing schedule won't overlap with work or any other activity I'm going to engage in the future. That I'm always able to dance.

Monday, 22 August 2011

A dream worth to record

Here goes another dream that I think is worth of recording here.

I was visiting Russia, a house near The Palace. The house was made of brick and it had a balcony - those that are the shape of an arc. Inside the house were servants or workers and tourists. But one part of the house was destricted (among the room, where the balcony was). And that's where I went. Everything was covered in a thick layer of dust. The floor in front of the balcony sank dreadfully under my feet. I still remember the feeling, it was so vivid. I think I was looking for something, but don't know what.

I heard people coming, and I had to hide myself to the balcony so that they would not discover me (after all I wasn't supposted to be there). I heard them coming to the balcony where I was hiding. I thought about jumping to the snowfalls underneath, but couldn't find the courage to do so. The people - tourists - opened the balcony door. They were talking and had tea cups in their hands. They looked at my direction yet they seemed to look past me. They didn't see me. And they left. I returned to the room.

Soon after my brother and my "brother" walked into the room with a paper scroll and a sun-dial. I write "brother" and brother, because the first one is somebody I have never seen in real life but was somehow related to me in the dream as a cousin or brother (he was dark haired, dressed in a soldier uniform and.. Russian). And behind him walked my real brother. "Brother" opened the scroll and gave me the sun-dial. The scroll had small vertical lines in a form of an arc and I moved the sun-dial along the arc. As I stopped my "brother" yelled happily "Now there we have it, the date of his (referring to himself) present incarnation!". There had been a rumour that somebody was going to buy the whole house to himself, and I thought that this way my "brother" was able to prove that he was the real heir of the house. He wrote the date on the paper on a red marker and draw four lines around it. The date was, if I remember right, september 31st. My "brother" then wrote on the paper ".. And this is for you, dear Anna!"

Anna is my first name but I'm normally called on my second name. My grandma is half Russian and his father served as a commissioned officer for the last emperor Nikolai. When revolution came he moved to Finland. I have never known my Russian relatives. And found out that I even had Russian relatives at the age of 17-18.

I better remember the date, that might be important.

Wednesday, 17 August 2011

..And the results.

I just got an offer in Facebook from my teacher to sell tickets for a Salsa Party. I would be paid of course.. :)

Sunday, 14 August 2011

Poppet magick

This Esbath I decided to try some poppet magick. I had found this cute little fellow and "she's" just perfect for to be my money talisman/poppet. Since I quit my job at McDonald's.. Money doesn't grow on trees and I just might need some more..

After creating the circle and calling the Gods and consecrating the tools (also the doll) I tied a ten-euro-bill on "her" back with my own hair - this way the doll is energetically connected to me. I kept "her" against my chest for a while to make it part of my aura. Then, holdin the poppet I visualized what I want and after that I visualized the doll inside a green energy ball. When I felt that "she" had had enough I imagined all the green energy to be sucked into the doll. I put it to hang on my window - for some reason - I felt that it'd be a good place.

Some more pics of my little one:

Friday, 12 August 2011

A Spell for Finding

I bought a pink cardigan from Gina Tricot ja now it has mysteriously disappeared! Me and my roommates have been looking for it everyhwere and have done everything to find it. But the it's like the cardigan has vanished like air! I'm sure my soommates have not stolen it, since first, the cardigan is definately not their style and second, they couldn't be able to wear it because then I would see who took it. Anyway, the situation required some magick. I did the following spell on wednesday from the book Witchcraft & Practical magic (Susan Greenwood, Raje Airey):

You'll need:

A wand of hazel
Honeysuckle oil diluded with carrier oil (I used Patchouli though)
A yellow cloth

Draw your circle (it's has to be deosil) with the wand and annoint yourself with Honeysuckle (or Patchouli) oil. Sit in the north corner of the circle fasing south. Visualize yourself sitting on peak of a high mountan made of magnetic crystals. Raise our hands up and say this invocation: Swift and sure, my (name the object) return to me.. or make you own invocation. Imagine your object being drawn back to you. When you finish, close the circle and wrap the wand in the yellow cloth and store in a safe place untill your object has been found..

Friday, 5 August 2011

It's buzzling in Salem..

So, everybodu knows Salem, right? The wellknown City of The Witches located in The Unated States. I visited the Witch School INT. page (link on rigth --->), which is an online school for witches and wiccans and the like all over to world. I found out that they're going to film an online reality TV show about three young wiccans/witches and their lives. The show will be hosted my MagickTV and ClickVision.TV.

"The Young Witches of Salem will follow the life of the young adult members of the Witch community of Salem, MA - the Witch City. As a Witch in a place where Witches are in demand, their lives can become very public, we will share how they handle their lives, their faith, and their magick in the crush of Halloween in Salem."

"The show will follow the lives of Salem Witches Danielle Young, Caitlin rose, and other young witches as they interact, work, and perform around the World of Witches Museum, Salem chapel, and The Witch city. The show will cover the month of October, 2011 which is the largest celebration of Halloween in the world today.

From simple rituals to full séances, the young staff under Rev. Donald Lewis , will be practicing psychic and magical arts for the public while teaching the history of the modern Pagan movement to visiting tourists. This is the delicate act our Young Witches of Salem uniquely face." (Note that mentioning Generation Hex* there does not refer to my blog :))

Here's also a video of the press conference:

Thursday, 4 August 2011

Zemaiciu Alka

I read about Romuva - an ancient religion of the Lithuanians - today at Lehto-ry. When I saw the little picture of the ancient people's sanctuary something inside me.. I mean, this was again one of those moments that you feel you could almost remember something... Especially the figures that look like the sun and moon. I can't get my eyes of them. There's just something in them.. I just have to keep on straring.

Monday, 1 August 2011

Lughnasad cheers!

Remmember to give thanks to nature everyone! :)

This blog has been here for over a year now. It's quite an accomplish for me. You see, I tend to start little things and then get bored of them and forget about them but this blog has been an exception. And it's also thanks to you my dear friends and readers! That being said, let's wellcome our new reader!

Saturday, 30 July 2011

Luciding again

I have to record this here since I don't have a dream journal. I saw a lucid dream last night again. First I tought it was happening for real as it was again very physical but when I suddenly found myself from my old childhood home I realized it had to be a dream. It was getting dark, I gazed at the stars from the window of my room. The cosmos was so beautifull but somehow I was horrified of the fact that it was getting dark. I didn't want to spent a night alone in the house so I bit myself to wake up. I remember telling myself inside my head "Come on, you have shift consciousness, you have to shift consciousness!". I don't know why I was so scared, after all, it was my dream and in my control. Now I just feel stupid 'cause could have done anything in it!

Also, I've moved into lesson two in the book "Modern Magick".


I'm working on a Lesser Banishing Ritual of the Pentagram, also known as LBRP. I note that I feel much somehow purified and lighter after the ritual. The second part was quite a bite for me as it introduced me to Kabbalah and it's history. I'm so proud of myself as I forced myself to study it through and didn't give up. Kabbalah and Hebrew for me was very complicated (it was quite frankly "Hebrew" for me, as we say in Finland if there's something you just don't understand). And my family is not religious so therefore I don't have a Christian upbringing: So my lousy knowledge about Bible didn't help either.
But I did study what was given in the book. :D Yay for me!

Saturday, 23 July 2011


I've been planning to take a tattoo for myself. Just a small one..

I was thinking of ankh since I relate to that symbol much better than for example - a pentagram.

Here's one I found very pretty:

And underneath it could read: Eternal Life or something like that. I was planning to take it under my belly. ;)

This one's also quite nice and simple :(wihtout the black background)

Saturday, 16 July 2011

Full moon spells

Fullmoon greetings everybody!

On this full moon I decided to try a sinple spell that I found from a book called The Nice Girl's Book Of Naughty Spells. Picture below ---->

The spell is about bringing your future lover into your dream or a sign about him/her. The book, though, tells you to do this during new moon but in my opinion full moon is just as good time to do divinationary things as is the new moon. The spell goes as following:

You'll need peppermint inscence, a piece of liquorice and a bowl of water. Light the inscence, breath in few times so that you feel concentrated. Drop the liquorice into the bowl. Ask your to be able to see your lover's face in your dream. Likewise, you can ask guidance how to find him/her. Place the bowl somewhere near you while you sleep.
And that's it. :)

I saw several dreams, none of which included a face that could belong to my future lover. I slept very restlessly so maybe I couldn't go deep enough into the dream state. :/ But I hope you have better luck!

About the rock-pile-job spell I did some time ago.. Since then I've come across several opportunities for jobs. Too bad that now I don't know wether to go study or to have a job. If I don't go studying there's a less chance that I could ever get into univercities. I don't now what to do! Besides, I'm going to audicion in a musical as a dancer and possibly as an actress (but for that I would have to know how to sing..). If I had a job and if I happened to be accepted in the musical, it'd be very difficult to try to combain those two. If I'd study, I would be able to skip courses.. But I don't know what to study or where. There are so few things that really interest me.. And if I don't accept the job possibilities I'm given right now I might regret it later when I really need the money. D:

Friday, 1 July 2011

About the fire

My friend was very surprised how calm I could concidering the fact that I had lost almost all my stuff in the fire. She said she could never ever live without her's. I'm actually quite glad I got a change to really - in a way - purify myself. The fire also happened during dark moon, which symbolizes new beginnings.

I've been thinking wether this was Karma or not, I'm pretty sure this was something that we all chose to experience together. I can't be mad to the one who burned himself and the house, I see it was his duty in this life. He was still a good man, I know. He cared a lot about the world and people and sometimes seeing all the pain in the world just was too much for him. Also good things came out of the accident. We are know stronger than ever, as a group even though we don't live together anymore but this bond that we share now is something that is unbreakable.

Not to mention all so called "supernatural" involving the accident. First: My fobia as a child for burning to death. Second, T's (I use letters coverin the people living there) amazingly strong De Ja Vu experience when he saw the flames (it makes me think, maybe we we burned alive in some of our past lives), third: On the morning of the accident a bit before it happened , M, who was at his mom's at the time saw a nightmare where he burned to death. When he woke up he smelled gasoline though there was no gasoline anywhere. K was at work and they had a fire which then prooved to be a false alarm (she later was informed about a real one at her house).

Here's a picture of the burning house:

Yksi ihminen kuoli vanhan puuhuvilan Villa Furumon tulipalossa Helsingin Vuosaaressa 28.5.2011. Kuvaaja: Sanni Luokkanen.

Tuesday, 21 June 2011


Sun is about to reach it's peak and prepares to wane. The days are longer than nights - for this one and last time. Fairyfolk is also celebrating and abounding so it's a good time to try to communicate with them. Traditionally food is left outside as an offering.

I found a wonderfull and beautifull tree from the forest yesterday. I'm gonna visit her this evening and leave the food there. Maybe trying to see a fairy or the like. ;) Also burning a candle and sandalwood inscense. Very simple.

Thursday, 16 June 2011

Couple days ago I walked in Kamppi and decided to ask for a job from a random antique store. Well, they didn't need me but I got a hint that a vintage clothing store on "Freda" could use some help. I went to stop by but the store was closed. However I noticed a dance supply store next to it and since I'm a dancer, I tought that might be a perfect place for me! I bumped in and asked for a job. They said I came just in time 'cause they're actually looking for new workers right now. They gave me the adress where to sent my application and now I'm hoping to get an invitation to the interview! :D

Wednesday, 8 June 2011

Thinkin' of getting a new job

I feel like I'm done with McDonald's now. I've had to put up with it already almost a year, so now it's time to finally make a change. I want a job that I can fit on my schedule. For example, I'd love to work for example in those little boutiques that open at 9am and close at 4 or 5pm so that I'd have rest of the day off. Loosing most of my stuff in the fire, I have to go back to basics in witchcraft. I always try to avoid all the stuff and keep things simple but during the year I had collected maybe a bit too much items.. for my first aim was to keep it simple and not to cling on materia (mainly because of my unsteady lifestyle). My aim was to be able to do a spell anywhere without any equipment I'd have to carry along except those I can just pick from the ground. I remember reading about this wonderfull "rock-pile-spell" (perfect one, if you're a Voyager Witchling like myself) one day and this is what I am gonna try next:

Cairn Magick Wish Spell

This is something that can be done, alone, on a walk in the countryside, with no extra magical 'tools' or paraphernalia. It is simple magic and down to earth paganism. It can be applied for any need, but is particularly suitable for 'earthy' needs, such as money, housing, jobs, healing.

Take one stone, and speak (or 'think') into it your need. Place the stone firmly on the ground. Take another and repeat, until you have a fair sized mound, or Cairn. As each stone is placed, imagine that the magic is building and that your need is getting nearer to being met. If you have no stones, you can still do this with imaginary stones, or pebbles, or whatever else seems right at the particular moment.

Found here:

Tuesday, 31 May 2011


Guess what guys, our house just burned. You might have probably seen it in the news last saturday... So I have A LOT to do right now. Oh my..

I though I was going to loose all my stuff. While standing in front of the burning house and seeing the flames coming out of the window we all thought the same thing: "Well, at least I can start from the clean table". That is probably the first thing that pops out in anybody's head when things like this happen. And like one member of our little community said: "Fire might be destructive but it's also purifying.."

So the upstairs burned pretty badly and downstairs was a one big swimming pool. My room was upstairs and I woke up only to see the door next to my room on flames. I did not have the time to save my stuff and accidentally also left the door open.. But the flames didn't touch my room. Everything there's okay (thank Goddess). However they ate the room on the right side..

The fire reminded me of an early childhood fobia. As a child I had this fear of waking up in the middle of the flames and to be burned death. I was extremely sensitive to this subject. If I heard there had been a fire somewhere (for example from the TV) I started feeling really distressed. I remember, when I was like five or something, everytime I went to bed I used to say to myself "I hope we wont burn, I hope we won't burn" or something like that as if I could prevent the house from burning that way. This fobia got easier when I grew but I still reacted to things like that pretty strongly when still in elementary school. I remember I once saw a dog encircled by flames on TV. The dog was rescued but I remember how incredibly awfull I felt, I was shaking and (probably) white as a ghost. I never reacted to any other things like that.

But this all got easier with age and even forgot all about it. Nowadays I don't react to news that tell from burning anymore. Our Villa had no fire alarms (apparently) and I once thought that at least I have stepladders under my window if the house would burn...

So when I saw the smoke and the flames my very first thought was "Hell no..This is it..". One boy/man who also lived with us had this most amazingly strong De ja vu when he saw the flames.

And now I have to move again. We all have to.

Tuesday, 24 May 2011

My Magical Studies

.. Oh I have so much to study! I just started the book Modern Magick. Picture below.

And above all that I have the university exams. The book contains eleven lessons og magick and assigments. I just have completed the lesson one and moving on to lesson two where I'll be studying the kabbalah and the Lesser Banishing Ritual of the Pentagram. The ritual seems so complicated!

The lesson one contains an relaxation ritual and a tarot ritual. So it goes like this; First you relax yourself by vizualizing a golden ebergyball coming up from your feet going through your whole body relaxing every muscle it touches. Before this you have to have the mager arcanas of the tarot on front of you (exepct the cards moon, devil, chariot, lovers, death and wheel of fortune). The rest of the arcanas are mixed now. Then only one card is taken from the pack.

I happens, that I have had the card Strength coming out for three times now. This probably means something. says the following:

When we pull the Strength card it is certainly a message that strength is required for some challenges ahead. It's also a sign that we absolutely have the strength that is required of us. But on a subtle level, this card is a signal that we are already complete and self-love is the key to meeting our needs.

Tuesday, 17 May 2011

Have A Happy Esbat!

Have a nice fullmoon night folks! I'm lucky to be able to see the moon through my window shining down into my room. :) I was at work last night but still decided to do a little ritual. I had to, the moon was so beautifull.

I already have told you that my chakras have been openening themselves since last summer. Nothing much has come from it by this far, except that I fysically feel energies in places such as metro, train, tram or even busses. Very much in places with a lot of electricity. Especially metros. Mostly it feels like sparks coming up my legs. It might tickle. But last summer when it started it was like crazy. I felt sparks and those that I call "erruptions" almost all the time, everywhere in my body. And the crown chakra tickled a lot. There was also this third energy thing that I call "worms" 'cause it feels like worms are climing up your leg under your skin.

But now it's much better. I sleep better, thank goddess.  I still occasionally feel this "churr" on top of my head (which I guess, has to do with my crown chakra). And, well, the sparks in places with a lot of electricity. Mostly during waxing moon, I feel a bit more sparks and not just in metros or busses but everywhere and even in some other parts of my body than just legs. That's when I know the moon is waxing again without seeing it or looking at the calendar.

But the most funniest thing is that, the energy is at it's strongest when the moon is half full and half dark. Not when it's completely full. I don't know why. But this I have noticed. I have many times thought it's fullmoon already, when the energy is running wild in my body but as I have checked this, it has only been half way full. *confusion*

But now I'm hungry.. Gonna go eating.. :)

Wednesday, 11 May 2011

Past life regression attempt

I attempted a past life regression again with the help of Youtube. It was a good regression record but the fact that Youtube keeps on stopping and loading every once in a while... that disturbed me to some degree. BUT I got something - was it my imagination or real, I'm not sure, I didn't actually see so clearly but the therapist asked some questions that helped. I seemed to be very sure about my name though, which was Isabelle. I've had this name come to me before in this same regression, but last time the story of my life was pretty much imagination (such a cliche). Of that I'm sure. It didn't feel like it, real I mean. I did this back in 2007 or 2008.

It's my favorite regression and made me relax quite well.. So the therapist was asking question like "What year is it, where are you, have you any family etc..". I got the year 1847, that was the first one to pop into my mind when asked. For the place I got Southern France but then again I'm not sure.. Isabelle was a serious, blond haired(I looked into the mirror to see myself only with one exeption; blond hair) girl. She worked in a grocery shop. Metal cans somehow popped into my mind.. Isabelle herself didn't like to talk much about herself, especially when asked something she would answer very shortly with only one word if possible. When I was asked if I had family I had this feeling like I didn't have any. Absolutely nobody. And she/I didn't seem to be sad about this (however she wasn't happy either), she had more like accepted this fact, that she'd be on her own. She used to have this a bit of a wary look in her eyes. As if she was waiting for questions to be asked from her. Some gentlemen who visited the store, found her very fascinating because of this (her quietness about herself), she however didn't like to be asked questions about herself.

I have this somewhat "funny" scene in my head about Isabelle and dark haired boy who obviously was interested in the girl. And Isabelle, and the look her face when the boy steps into the store! Isabelle knows there's gonna be questions again but she can't really stop them from coming.. oh the look on her face is priceless. ;D

Even though Isabelle's nature is very different from mine I do recognize myself in her. I do avoid questions that I consider too personal. In fact it is very difficult for me to speak about myself. Unless I'm asked, and then and only then I can give you answers but, like Isabelle, my answer is very short and leaves the asker often to feel unsatisfied and want to know more. Some more sensitive people however leave the subject as they sense my self-consciousness.

I had a feeling like Isabelle was an orphan, but I don't know who did she manage to avoid the prostitution and end up in store..?

Thursday, 5 May 2011

I Love Money Spells

I just recieved a letter yesterday from KELA and found out that they will give me 157 euros for housing benefit... The best thing here is, I haven't applied for housing benefit. :D I visited KELA some time ago and they said that my income is way too over the limit so that they could not give me any money plus, I didn't have all the papers required, so they sent me home and told me to come back later. But it seems that  my so called application still pulled it through. Even though it was not supposted to go to the processing...

I then decided to leave the whole thing, since it's too much paperwork. And my rent is not so expensive after all.. But this money is ofcourse wellcome. :D I don't remember when was the last time I did a money spell (maybe like two weeks ago). But this gotta be something that only a spell could do, we all now how tricky and resistant KELA is when it comes to money. And this happened without me having to do basically anything..

Saturday, 30 April 2011

Beltaine blessings and stuff

Goddess's flame is smoking again. I got it on tape, but didn't realize that I hold the camera in a way which makes the video show wrong way around for you guys. Anyway, I suppose you're able to see the sream of smoke it's sending.

And hey! It's Beltaine! My favorite pagan holyday. Beltaine also starts my favorite month of the whole year; May. I love May. Just everything about it. When it's not summer and hot just yet. When everything is so fresh, so alive!

For pagans and wiccans Beltaine is about the mating of the young God and the maiden Goddess. It is a fertility festival and once again, like on Samhain, the veil between the worlds is thin. This enables us to see the future or contact our loved once that have already passed away and seek their guidance. Love, fertility and prosperity spells are common at this time of the year.

This morning was very beautifull. While braiding my hair (braids symbolize rejoinment/unification - therefore they are accociated with Beltaine) I heard the little girl who lives downstairs, playing a flute. She played so beautifully. I don't know the song but it sounded a bit celtic - a perfect Beltaine song. The melody was joyous and oh, so springy. :)

I then headed to the forest (here in Vuosaari there's A LOT of forest <3) to give a little gift to the nature. Oat flakes. Somehow in my mind they make a perfect Beltaine offering though some might think they're more like Lughnasadh stuff..

I also took a walk yesterday evening. I walked beside the forests and then the fields. The scene was similar to something forgotten but still living in me. I could almost see the bonfires and the people gathered around them so long ago. I want those times back! And I want a white flax (fin. Pellava) dress.
 Anyways, whithout more ado, have a very blessed Beltaine!

Thursday, 14 April 2011

Past lives

I strongly believe in reincarnation. I have had many moments of "almost remembering" but mostly they come up to me as feelings or even as scents. For example, once I saw this picture of Britain that reminded me from something I could almost remember and I could feel and almost smell how it was there back then. But I just can't remember them. I've been trying self regression (because seeing a therapist would be too expensive), but haven't succeeded by this far. Though, in one session I got this feeling december would be somehow a significant month.

I found this video from YouTube, "Tips on remembering past lives". They're really fun!

Tuesday, 12 April 2011

The ritual is now done. Phew! It was alot of sneaking around since I had to do it in a another (totally empty) room across the hallway (there's not enough space in my room to create a circle). I had to carry my stuff without raising suspicions in case somebody would see me. But I survived!

So as you probably remember, my goal was to connect the goddess Afrodite more better.

Here're some pictures of my "Altar Of Afrodite".

Rose inscense of course..

A candle-thingy with a greek-design holder.

Apple, the fruit of Afrodite.

I made my own "Afrodite Annointing Oil" on a coconut oil base.

You'll need:

Coconut/olive/almond/whatever basic vegetable oil
Etheric Cinnamon oil (fin. kaneli)
Etheric clove oil (fin. Neilikka)
Etheric rose oil

Mix them together!

All of the following plants are associated with Afrodite.

This time I created the circle by dancing. :) There's not much need to go into detail here about the actual ritual. Let's see what are the consequences. ;)

Sunday, 3 April 2011

The most psychedelic dream ever

I have a vivid dream life and mostly it's very physical. As if I was awake. And when dreaming I always think it happens for real untill some crazy incident that makes me realize it's just a dream. And then I do whatever I want. I have lucid dreams regularly. Once I even fell asleep being concious of it at the same time.

But last night, or should I say morning (it was around 6-9 am), I had the most psychedelic dream experience. I'm not sure of it, but part of the "dream" might have not been a dream but something else.

I had waken up before six because of the noise coming from downstairs. Annoyed, I put earplugs on hoping I could sleep at least 'till noon. I did fall asleep. And here's what happened: I can't remember anything about the dream I had before this but at one point I guess I was about to wake up when a woman came to me saying:

"No don't go, come here.." Pulling me, not towards, but into herself.
"..come here..yes that's it.." With those words, pulling me into her body. I suppose, I'm not sure where exactly I went but I was fluid, like liquid. In a way she was like energy too. You know, even in a dream, you're in you body walking around, seeing crazy things in your eyes.. but at that moment it wasn't like that anymore. I left my dream body. It felt like blending liquids into one another. I was liquid blending into another liquid. I was inside her, in whiteness. I spent some time there and after a while decided to leave.

Leaving however wasn't that easy. I got stuck. I opened my right eye but couldn't open the left one. No matter how much I tried. I also felt that half of me was still stuck inside. But with my right eye I could see that now I was in a dream again. I saw one of the black cat's that belong to this girl who lives here too. I was in a tropical rainforest and spent the rest of the time trying to get myself out as a whole.

I can't remember how I eventually managed to get myself out. Or the moment I woke up. But now that I think back the thoughts I had before I fell asleep... I had asked the Goddess to help me sleep (I have had trouble to get some good night sleeps for months, constantly waking up) and then I went through the names of the goddesses accociated with sleeping and the last thought of mine, that I remember, was "Psyche".

And you know the rest.

EDIT: I have been very attracted to butterflies recently and have accepted them as my current power animals. However, I just googled Psyche and found out that her name also means "butterfly".

Saturday, 2 April 2011

There seems to be some xtra money on my bank account again. Nearly 2000 euros which means my salary must have been at least 600 euros. The thing is, it's not has been a salary day and is not about to be in near future. Well, I did do a small "easy money and quick" spell about a week ago. I didn't use any equipment, I only created a psi ball (an energy ball between my hands) concentrating on my goal. And after a while let it go.

From this sucject to a next one. Yesterday I bought this beautifull rose from a flower store:

I'm working on a ritual to connect with Afrodite more better. This flower of course is gonna be part of it. But I'm gonna tell you more about it when it's done. :)

Wednesday, 23 March 2011

Peek a boo!

In this post we are gonna take little look at my room but before that there's something I have to write down here. This happened in meditation this morning. I think I was about flow out of my body and, if I wasn't sitting so close to the edging of my bed being in danger to fall down, I probably would have been able to do that. It was a funny feeling. For the first time, it concretised to me that me and my body are two different things.I only felt that my body is just a dwelling or residence and I could just leave it there (if there wasn't the danger that it'd fall on the foor and get damaged). I could just flow out.

But, you're probably very eager to see the pics?

I bought this book the day before yerterday from a second hand book shop in Kamppi. The author of the book has gotten his material from an old Welsh wizard. The book is mainly about the medical use of herbs. It is so interesting, I can't wait to read it! Herbs hold so much inside them that the modern medical care system doesn't have a chance!

My current altar. Small and messy but there's so little space here that I have no choise.

A butterfly-thingy hanging on the wall. I <3 butterflies.

Pretty, aren't they?

The windows and curtains.  It was very difficult to take a picture since the sun was shinign right through the windows making it dark. This's the best one.

I hope that next time I'm able to post something more exiting. :)

Monday, 21 March 2011

Ostara/Easter/Spring Equinox

Have a blessed ostara everybody! I'm here, spending mine while listening this wonderfull song. It really makes me feel fresh and newborn. There could be no better song for Ostara!

Ostara aka Spring Equinox is a festival of balance, both day and night are the same length now, and finally afterwards the light taking over. The young God is a young "lad" by this time and the Goddess is a young maiden again. They fall in love. :) I consider Ostara a great time for love spells also.

Ostara is an old German fertility goddess after whom the festival is named. Ostara (as most of the pagan festivals) is also a festival of fertility.

The colors of Ostara are pastel shades. Pink, blue, green.. Traditionally white. The animal accosiated with Ostara (or Eostre) is hare. According to folk custom studies, a hare is a commong animal appearing in old Northen and Saxon cultures around the Spring Equinox (in my opinion a hare is a great metaphor for a fertility festival - let's do it the bunny style! ;D).

In my opinion the best Ostara oil is Lemon. Also, Orange would do fine.
Lilies are probably the most commong Ostara flowers. I saw one pack on sale yesterday, I better go and buy it before somebody else!

There's a funny little "coinsidence" happening in my life, that takes place around this festival, right now. It's an important one and has to do with my career. It kinda gives me an opportunity to pland seeds, in a way...

So, I wish very happy and joyfull Ostara my friends! (I'm going to eat.. Dying in hunger..)

Saturday, 19 March 2011

Veni, vidi, visa - I came, I saw, I shopped

This little darling is so beautifull..

I'm trying to resist the urge to buy it.. But.. I.. can't.. Must.. Buy.. The beautifull... Wand...

It'd be my first wand.

Also I have this urge to learn more, for example, about the herbs but damn it I have so poor memory when it comes to learingn through reading. I need somebody to tell me those things, to speak about it, then I'll remember it the rest of my life! Reading is not for me. I'll try however.. HMMM..

How about "A SUPER MEMORY SPELL" to increase the capacity of my brains to remember things I've read?

Friday, 18 March 2011

A better picture

Here's a better picture of the scene described above.

Thursday, 17 March 2011

Moonlight shadow

I just have to share this with you guys. It was so magical last night. :) When I went to bed, in the dark room, I could see the moon above me, up in the sky, shining down it's beautifull light on my pilow and on my face. I failed to take good pictures of the scene with my digital camera, but here's some (crappy ones though):

 The moon was much bigger in real life, but somehow my camera just wouldn't capture it in it's right size, no matter how much I used zoom. :/
 I couldn't get a picture of how the light beautifully fell on my bed, because it was just too dark. Using flash light would make it all dissappear.

It is soon to be a fullmoon again. :) And Ostara. Yay! Summer is coming..

Wednesday, 16 March 2011

Book of Shadows

I bought this beautifull blank book from Indian Bazar and it's going to be my BOS as soon as I finish copying the information I've collected from the crappy old notebook into this one.

Sorry for the lack of update, but I'm exhausted with the up coming exams of the universities. :/

Oh, I almost forgot I had to recommend you this book:

I borrowed it from the library a while ago. Here's the describtion in finnish:

Testaa itsesi: Afrodite, Athene, Selene ja muut antiikin Kreikan 16 jumalatarta astuvat modernin elämän näyttämöille tavalla, joka koskettaa jokaista naista. Kuka sinä olet? Pääset selville omasta jumalatartyypistäsi, kun teet kirjassa olevan JPCA®-testin ja luet laajan kuvauksen profiilistasi. Tutustut itseesi uudelleen ja opit ymmärtämään paremmin muita. Jokainen nainen syntyy jumalattareksi, ainutkertaiseksi ihmiseksi.

I first thought the book would be one of those "gooey" ones this world is full of. You know, like the shallow stuff all the womens magazines tell you over and over again. Glitz and glamour. However the book caught my attention because there were goddesses I had not read before. So I decided to take the test and was surprized by the ressult which was not what I had expected at all.

I got Afrodite, the goddess of love as everybody probably knows. I had never ever thought myself as Afrodite, for some reason. The describtion was pretty accurate only with few exeptions. For example, the book claimed women like that are constantly in complicated love affairs and get crushes easily. I'm not like that. I don't fall in love easily and have never been in a relationship. But I can cleary see the connection between me and the goddess Afrodite now. The way I comunicate.. The music I listen (which is mostly latin beats, flamenco, music with a warm sound and melody). And of course I'm a huge lover of latin dances.

There was also this goddess called Hebe - the goddess of youth  - which I felt was very close to what I actually am. There're only one or two points between Afrodite and Hebe in my result. I totally agree in what is said in Hebe's description. hebe though, is concidered as Afrodite's "periliminary level".

Who knows, maybe someday this:

.. turns into this:


Sunday, 27 February 2011


This a brief one. I just moved, so I've been busy. But every once in a while I've stopped and listened the inevitably approaching spring. Spring is my favorite month. I love it when everything starts to bloom again.Starts living again.

I'm currently reading Janet & Stewart Farrar's The Witches Bible

And up next I'm going to read this one:

It has big and heavy. And it has everything about magick. Not just wicca but all kinds of magick there is and has been. Bought it from Unio Mystica.

And wellcome new readers!! <3

Thursday, 17 February 2011

Happy Esbat

I've been really busy since I have to arrange everything before moving to a new apartment (A Villa to be correct). Yep, the very same I told you about in the last post. Somehow hotmail had lost the messages I had sent but it's all okay now. But I have to get somebody to move here for one month before I can move awa,y otherwise I have to pay the rent of this apartment AND the villa, and also the rent deposit.. Oh, and I have to try to decide where to go study and start to prepare for the exams. I'm totally done with McDonald's!

I just finished my fullmoon ritual. This time the God's candle flame went crazy (I couldn't get it on tape 'cause I was in the circle and by the time I had gotten my camera on my hands the flame had returned normal). The Goddess's was all calm. This has probably something to do with my creativity enlivening, again. I'm seriously considering if I'd aply to study dance, even though I'm a former ballroom dancer and don't have so much experience of jazz or conterary dance (which are demanded in dance academies).

Tuesday, 8 February 2011

A Spell For Contact

I applied for an apartment (or more accurately, a room from a apartment) and I was asked to come to look at the room and give some examples when I'm free to come (I have work ya know). I did as asked, but didn't get anything back from the woman renting the room. That pisses me off, 'cause if she decided she don't want to rent it for me, then she should inform me! So I made this spell last night. A spell for contact. In this spell you'll need a string, as long as you like, a piece of paper and scissors. Also, a green color pencil would be great but is not a necessity.

Create a circle (if you use one). Calm down, relax, center yourself. Then write the person's name you want to contact on the piece of paper. Make a little whole on the paper and bind it to the string. Write the person's name on the paper. Then, while concentrating on the person and the fact that he/she must contact you, roll the string around your finger untill the paper is on your hand.

And you're done. I like to keep things simple. :)

Oh and a new reader, wellcome! <3

Tuesday, 1 February 2011

Happy Imbolc!

Have a blessed Imbolc everybody!

Briefly Imbolc is about ever increasing light and creativity. As for myself, I blessed my "dance socks" or "toe undies", that are used in dancing so that the skin on the feet would not suffer. I tucked two of the three horse shoes I have, into the undies for luck.

Also, last night I had this dream I gave birth to a pink haired beautifull little girl. She grew up very quickly though, and then her hair was partly white, pink and green.

And we have a new reader. From the bottom of my heart: Wellcome! <3

Saturday, 29 January 2011


I don't understand this. Why's the Goddesses candle flame flickering and trembling like crazy everytime I kindle it? The God's flame is all calm. What's she tryin to tell me? And this happens every single time, I do this nearly daily 'cause I meditate. I said that this makes me confused and that I'm don't quite understand, but I'd be ready to follow her guidance in this - whatever it is - that she wants.

Saturday, 22 January 2011


Now I managed to get it on tape.

I had kindled t only the Goddess's candle this time. It doesn't send a stream of smoke like the God's candle did yesterday but it smokes anyway. And we all now, that when a candle flame has grown bigger and sends smoke, a spirit is present in the room.

I hope it works now, since I had some problems uploading so I couldn't publish this right away.

Saturday, 15 January 2011


Yeah, Oh My God and Goddess!! Now, just a moment ago, I was meditating in front of my altar and I had kindled the two candles as usual. I sat still for a while when I sensed a blaze in front of my eyes. I opened my eyes to check I didn't start a fire to see the God's candle flame grow even bigger than the last time and this time a stream of smoke came out of it. Really A STREAM. I've seen candles smoke before but not like that. It was crazy. I tried to take a picture but my camera wouldn't work (low battery?).The Goddess's candle was flickering like crasy too, it didn't send a stream of smoke but did smoke a little. After a while the both candle flames returned to normal.

Whoa. I guess this is a sure sign that I really gotta start dancing again..

Wednesday, 12 January 2011

Last night I had a little moment of meditation. I had kindled the two candles and when I opened my eyes I saw that the flame in the God's candle had grown into a big one indeed. It was at least five centimeters tall. I wonder if it has something to do with my creativity as I've started drawing and dancing again. You know God represents creativity.

Oh, and, you remember the horse shoes I bought "for no reason" (there's always a reason even though I might not know it at the moment :)). I met two other pagans with Miwia recently, one of which is a blacksmith (Finnish translation: Hevosenkengittäjä)..  :)) We had a lot of fun. Somehow our conversations always turn out to be about sexuality... and Miwia's such a perve. Sorry Miwwy, but you said so yourself too. ;D