Thursday, 13 December 2012

Double dark moon



Have a nice dark moon fellows! I heard it's actually a double moon today so pick up your wands and start weaving some magick! ;)

I'm going to do a cleansing ritual of unwanted feelings. Very simple: Fill a little cup with sault and water. Holding the cup in your hands, head slightly down towards the cup,  breathe in the freshness of the mixed water and sault. Bring about your all negative emotions and vizualise then pouring into the cup. Continue untill you have no negativity left..

Friday, 30 November 2012

This morning it's snowing like sh*t.



It's been quiet here. Sorry for that. I've just been on a little break and not much has happened that would propably interest you folks.

Twinkle twinkle morning star
How I wonder what you are..

For a few days I've been so energetic for some reason (and it also caused me insomnia again..) that this morning I just HAD TO do something about it so I did a prosperity spell. Gosh, what a flow of energy I had! I'm clad I now got rid of it and made it do something usefull for me. :> It was quick and simple. I used a candle and a green string around it, the string being the object of focus...

Up above the world so high,
Like a diamond in the sky.

..

I can't exactly remember what I mumbled at that moment but I used the rhyme from Twinkle Twinkle Little Star.

"Twinkle, Twinkle, Little Star" is a popular English lullaby. The lyrics are from an early 19th-century English poem, "The Star" by Jane Taylor. The poem, which is in couplet form, was first published in 1806 in Rhymes for the Nursery, a collection of poems by Taylor and her sister Ann. It is sung to the tune of the French melody "Ah! vous dirai-je, Maman", which was published in 1761 and later arranged by Mozart for a famous set of variations.[" - Wikipedia




P.S: No wonder I was so restless.. It's full moon!

Tuesday, 7 August 2012

Healing spell and power animals

Puksu was a bit ill again so I did a little healing spell for him on sunday. I made a little dog-like figure of bluetack and put Puksu's hair into it. Then quickly creating a circle by imagining a vortex of silvery energy above my head, drawing it down my body and letting it expand forming a ring around me. Calling the Gods to be present and so on. I draw energy from the vortex through me into the figure, at the same time imagining Puksu into a white healing energy buble.

Puksu is much better now. :)

I've been wondering what could be my power animal since for a long time I haven't had any interest to any particular animal. Yesterday I found it out. It's a tortoise! I found a little tortoise-pendant from Bijou Brigitte, Kamppi, and just had to buy it. When I held it to my chest it immediately relieved my anxiety. Tortoises have stable, inner strength and calmness that I apparently need right now; I'm moving again, my mom is going to a surgery, I'm hoping Puksu would stay healthy, I'm runing out of money.. But luckily should get the rest of my wage soon and student allowance..

Sunday, 8 July 2012

Break the silence

It has been a long time since I've wrote this blog but the process I've been going through has taken most of my energy, plus, doing theater. But anyways. I've been releasing a great number of things and gained a lot more selfrespect.

I've been offbeat and haven't done any ritual since Beltaine. But now I feel like doing something again. And I feel like studying again.. But about what.. I dunno. First I'm going to finish "Ceremonial Magick". Going to do a little space clearing ritual from that book at first. It's nice.. *Sigh* I feel.. Like coming back to earth again.. Like I've been somewhere very deep.. And now I'm slowly coming back.. Like waking up from a dream or something..

Tuesday, 1 May 2012

Beltaine

Have a wonderfull Beltaine everybody! Here's a little songpiece:

http://youtu.be/bh3rsLYCtsw


And some astrology here:
Pluto the planet of death is currently opposing my Jupiter (the planet of joy, luck and beliefs). This means a lot of old habits and psycological restricitons have been dealt with. This transit gives me the strenght to overcome my inner demons. I've learned a lot about law of attraction. And in it has only been two weeks but I feel like a newborn. So much I've left behind. I've digged deep into my subconcious and revealed a lot. I found a wonderfull lady on youtube, she's a hypnotherapist and it was through her that I discovered what was really going on in my mind. She's just great!

Here's one of her eye-opening videos:

http://youtu.be/50i-gJsT6_w

I can say I've definately been there. I always seemed to fall for unattainable people. My mind often created chemistry with them because I needed the drama. My often saw them more glorious as they really were. Saw things that really weren't there. And at the same time it was a safe way 'cause I new it couldn't happen because of my fears deep down in my subconcious. And subconious always wants to repeat the patterns it has learned, wheter it's good or bad, just because it's safe. 

I've learned so much, I highly recommend Debra Berndt to everyone!

Saturday, 7 April 2012

Fullmoon talisman

I decided to make a talisman for increasing creativity since I should do some choreographies for our production and for the TEAK exams. It's already working, though I'm suddenly very interested in writing songs :0. Nothing bad in it, it's just that, I've never written songs nor thought I could do so. But today I did anyway. It turned out pretty nice (notice, I'm writing lyrics, not composing).

Here's some pics.


There's the scroll.
Here's what's inside:



The sign of Venus, planet of love but creativity/arts as well. Then a figure that I formed from a finnish word "luovuus" (creativity) using a table of hebrew letters from the book Modern Magick (discussed in earlier posts too) by D.M Kraig. Then a triangle of air and a name of a entity of air "Anael" and two marks/symbols associated with it.

SO, back to songwriting.. :) Maybe I'll even show some of them here in this blog.

Friday, 30 March 2012

Past life examination and general speculation

So today I was, fot the second time, seeing a hypnotherapist who's supposted to help me with my insomnia. I also asked her if we could try out bringing up past lives so that's what we did today. I wasn't so deeply in the hypnosis that I could tell anything for sure but this's what we got:

When I was asked about a place I got England, countryside. I saw a field and a tree and an emtry of a small house. The door was the back door, in the middle of a small garden. Then I got some corner of a white low-build house, I somehow was thinking it served as a school.. The time was 17 hundreds or so.. I didn't get any exact date, maybe because she didn't ask it so specifically. She also made me meet my so called former persona. So I met this dark haired man with a tuxedo, who somehow didn't fit the whole countryside thing.. Maybe that was where he was born or then there were somehow two lives simultaneously surfacing. I don't know. I don't know if the man was my former incarnation or just a mind trick. He looked wily with his longish nose and rather sharp features but his character was not sneaky at all. He was gentle and smiling. My therapist asked us to exchange gifts or advice (wasn't quite sure what exactly she meant) and I got a little heart shaped diamond necklace. And I gave him a flower (fare? :D).

Anyways, that's what we got today.

Wednesday, 28 March 2012

Do you love your mother like I love mine?



Mine is right now in the hospital. So value yours!

P.S: She'd be okay though..

P.S.S: I still got scared (cried a bit) and realized how big of a part of me she is.

Thursday, 22 March 2012

Spring Equinox




I had no time to do anything but burn some candles. I burned black and a white candle. For the balance of polarities, obviously. :)

Sunday, 11 March 2012

Scrying

Last Esbat I decided to do some scrying with my Tarot cards. I tried it with a chalice filled with water but didn't see anything. So I used the Tarot cards. I made a simple deck I learned when I was teenager and just getting familiar with Tarot. I lifted two cards for the past, two cards for the present and two cards for the future. They would form a triangle and the present being the upper peak.

My cards were:

Past: Justice and the Six of Cups

Justice represents balance and the Six of Cups reunion and nostalgia, also memories of the past. It seems that I'm in balance with the past.

Present: The Three of Swords and the Ten of Pentacles

The Three of Swords usually means disharmony, sorrow or pain, unhappiness or disturbance. Which is true in my case, if you read my post of astrology where I told you about my hearthache.
The Ten of Pentacles on the other hand is related to prosperity in all levels. "Richness" some say. Well I might say that I'm now "an experience richer" and a stronger person. This should also be a good time to search for a new job which pays well...

The Future: The Queen of Sword and the Ace of Wands

The Queen of Swords is about intellect, facts and logic. It's about the decision making with your brains rather than with your heart. It is a positive card, usually indicating that the person involved is able to this kind of decision making and also sees things clearly.

Ace of Wands deals with plenty of energy to go for whatever you it is that you want. It promises adventure and exciting endeavors. New projects. Especially this card calls for artists, visionaries, entepreneurs and such.

At least the future looks promising..

Moonlight shines down in distellar beams

How on earth the moon is so beautifull... Last night I had a dream. I was in Oulu, in the place where I spent my childhood. It was night. And fullmoon and I was there with some people. I knew I had to leave the group because I had to celebrate the Esbat. So I left. I walked the road beside the houses and fences and I can't even describe how beautifull the moon was. It was so bright. I was staring at it and a thought occured into my mind. I thought I could leave my body and go astral traveling and I closed my eyes but then fear stopped me. I was afraid that others might find me lying there on the ground and so they would find out I'm a witch! And that should never happen! I'd be screwed..

Actually my that fear is connected to my waking life. I'm about to move again. But now my landlady also lives in the same house and I don't think she'd be very pleased to find out what I actually am! She's an oldery lady, possibly a christian ('cause this city seems to be full of them!) and I gotta be extra cautious now. Especially with my books and stuff..

I regret that I took the house.. I didn't feel confortable in it in the first place.. Why did I take it? It's in the center and there's no nature..

Thursday, 1 March 2012

Some astrology



I've been looking forward for this spring for following reasons. I'm going to have some heavy transits and I'm willing to work myself as they come along. Transits are those, that describe one's current life situations.

First, I'm having Chiron square Sun. Chiron is an asteroid and it has to do with physical health as well as emotional.Chiron also has to do with one's own wounds or so called weak points (we all have them). Square is a challenging figure and it offers an opportunity for growth (as do the other challenging figures; Opposition and quincunx).

During Chiron square Sun (Sun represents You, The Ego) I've been fluish and and so on. But I've also been hurt emotionally. I was told by my - let's call her "friend" - how she could never ever fall for a girl who wears make up, is girly and very talkactive. So she basically gave a pretty accurate descreption of me. Though she didn't realize it and I know she didn't mean to hurt me. BUT.. When I got home I cried anyway. And it felt so good.

But I now resist even more strongly the temptation to be what somebody wants me to be (even though I haven't given into it I admit that it is one of my weak points, to look certain way..). My ASC is in Virgo. ASC also describes aspects of one's personality as well as appearance and the way how others see you. I think feeling "not-good-enough" is a Virgo-trait. I'm about to have Chiron opposing my ASC, so it's definately gonna bring some weak points to be healed. But I'm ready. I want to be loved as I am, not because I look certain way - neither do I want to be rejected just because I look certain way..

The saddest thing is that she (my friend) too is trying to fit in to somebody else's frame just as she want's somebody who fits into hers. But if she keeps living like that she's never gonna be really happy and loved. That's really sad. I'm not going to make that mistake.

Sunday, 26 February 2012

The most wonderfull feeling



Yesterday I was about to dry a waxing moon meditation but somehow it just didn't work. then I just let my mind wonder around for a bit. And I ended up chanting "Kore-Demeter-Hekate". And then I felt this wonderful feeling of completement yet it was something of a feeling of being "open". Open and complete. For I, have now come in touch - for real - the Goddess within. I used to know that we are all a manifestation of hers but now for the first time I felt that I too am the Goddess in all her forms. An equal part of her. And it's the most wonderfull feeling!

Saturday, 25 February 2012

I'm currently reading Spiral Damce by Starhawk. In the book there's a very interesting reading suggestion; Tristine Rainer, The New Diary which introduces a tehcnique discovering past lives through writing. I'm so going to try it once I get the book in my hands! I've had couple of "flashbacks" as a teen (the first one when I was about 14) where I'm about to cross a street and feeling very happy. There's a house across the street that is biuld like these:



And as a child I remember liking houses like those very much for an unknown reason. Though in my flashback the wooden parts were a bit darker.. Just like in the picture below, the house in front..



I call them "The German Houses" even though similar ones are probably build all over central Europe. However I've always identified them with Germany.

Saturday, 18 February 2012

Lazyness..

Sorry for the lack of posts. I've been very busy and then again very lazy. Fluish and such. The flu is getting better. The last fullmoon just went by like woosh! I was too lazy to do anything. I've borrowed some books from the library such as Aradia - The Gospel of Witches (read it already) and The Spiral Dance by Starhawk (should read it already!). I'm currently trying to read The Golden Bough by James Frazier and as interesting as the book really is it's SOOO THICK and written in such a tiny font that it's so much work! And I'm so lazy..

Thursday, 2 February 2012

Imbolc



Have a nice Imbolc folks! In ancient times Imbolc was sacret to celtic goddess Brigid who was the goddess of fire, music, poetry, bards and smith's, inspiration, childbirth, healing and unity. Brigid was the daugter of the great father god Dagda and one of the Duatha De Danann (god's folk). The very place of her worship was Kildare (Ireland) were it was said that a group of priestesses were keeping the sacret flame of Brigid. There was also a sacret well known by it's healing properties.

I'm tired, so only thing I'm gonna do is some reading and candle kindling. :)

Sunday, 8 January 2012

Some buyings..

Today I'm gonna do my full moon ritual but first let's take a look at my buyings (I can't help it, I'm a shop-a-holic). I found this wonderfull bracelet from Gina Tricot and fell in love with it. Frankly I never use bracelets, but maybe I could learn..


Yep.

The next thing I bought was owl earrings. I'm not much into owls (black cat's are more like my thing) but these two were so pretty that I had to buy them. To be honest tey're a bit too big for I'm so small.. But pretty nonetheless.




However, I did modify it a bit for myself such as the texts. The idea of thankfullness is nice. Also, gonna sent some healing energy to Puksu who's suffering from diarrhea again..